Right now
I need some inspiration.
What I really want to do is have the boy in the same room with me… we don’t have to DO anything together, I just want the comfort of knowing he’s here. I won’t have that for at best, a few more days.
I have stories needing to be written, and I keep avoiding the pen and paper (or computer).
I have bills that I simply can’t pay right now, and I hope they don’t shut anything off until I get my “bill” paycheck rather than my “rent” paycheck.
I really needs a pick-me-up of some kind… as I feel somewhat lost and floundering without something to do.
I am horrifically hungry all the time, and I hope all the weight I worked so hard to lose doesn’t come back.
I haven’t had a cigarette in almost 5 weeks, and the desire to have one gets less and less. Actually when I’m at Starbucks with my friends, I almost want to bitch at them because the smell bothers me so much.
I need to journal some of my recent experiences.
And I need to start carrying my camera again (or at least upload all the photos I did take into flickr).
Tags: life, love, soul searching