In a state of thixotropy

In need

There is definitely something to be said about the ridiculous amount of money that I spend in tuition at school. Mostly that I get some medical care for free as part of that cost. The second is that they offer some psychological help when needed.

Today I ditched most of my classes to go talk to someone. It takes a lot to admit that you’re losing control. It takes a lot to know that only someone else can tell you how to regain some of that control.

So today, I sought help.

We’ll see how it turns out, but for now… I’m going to have to trudge through and hope that on those bad days, no one I care about or love is in the way. Because it seems that little voice in your head that talks you down from yelling at neighbor kids, or screaming obscenities at someone can be diminished. Stress, lack of sleep, exhaustion and frusration can make that little voice dormant.

I haven’t been a pleasant person to be around the last few weeks. I don’t like it.

Tags: life, school
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